Not Good at Chit-Chat

It's been awhile since I've blogged! Sorry, life got kind of hmm, what's the word, complicated for a while, but I've gotten some clarity again. I'll save that for a future blog. :)

As you can tell by now I usually write about my relationship with God and the struggles therein. I am a wrestler, of the Jacob variety. I'm not satisfied with pat answers or the easy answer. I've always tended to see life from several angles, which is what drew me toward psychology and social work I guess.

Right now, someone from my small high school class (yep a whole 18 students) is fighting a serious cancer. He has a caring bridge site https://www.caringbridge.org/visit/veurink/createorsignin and has literally over 400 posts from people all over the country praying for him. My family included. I would appreciate it if you would pray too. He is a husband and father of three and only 42 years old. As there were only 18 in my high school class we knew each other pretty well and as a class we were quite close. I really liked my class and thought we were the best class in the high school. Maybe every class thinks that, but I think we actually were!

Back to my point, it is these kinds of things - great people, wonderful Christians that go through fiery trials that makes me step back and think about my life, faith, God - all of it. I know that we are not promised an easy life free of trials, but that God will walk with us through those things. I also know prayer is powerful.

As I walk with people in my own circle of influence and hear their struggles I am reminded of God's grace and provision - especially as more time and space are given. I can look back and see how God was working it together. But there are those rare times that simply must be left in His hands because there is no human reasoning to make it make sense. Only God knows the big picture. It always seems to circle back to trust. Am I willing to trust Him when I can't see what's happening or why?

One final thought - I'm not good at chit-chat, never have been. I know there is so much more to people than the friendly surface stuff that happens in large social gatherings. It's frankly just plain hard for me to do that surface level stuff. I'm also not very outgoing. I'm not the life of the party, but if you want to have a deep, personal conversation about God and your walk with Him - you'll have my undivided attention.

'til next time...

and the greatest of these is love.

Gina